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finally managed to finish dry sand castles! check it out please!! :)
i'm scared to lose my passion
because it's the only fucking
friend i have left.
i'm scared to lose my sparks
because fireworks aren't the
only explosions in my mind.

i'm scared i'll run out of
words and the only thing
left will be the taste of 
a hollow tongue, falling apart.
i might have social anxiety 

a medical diagnosis, clean cut
"it's not your fault"
but every time my words 
fail me, the sympathetic looks
are replaced with a shuffle as

i'm cut off from the group.
i'm terrified of loneliness
again; insanity is the price 
to pay when the silence
becomes so omnipresent you

start to think you're deaf. 
i'm sorry that i'm broken
and i'm sorry that i'm
scared of human beings
and going outside and the look on your face when you realise that i'm not okay and how much i stutter just trying to talk and the fact i can't order take-out on the phone and the countless times i've been told "get over it" and for how long i thought i could never be fixed. and maybe

i can't apologise enough
for the sand castles i've tried
to build only to have them collapse
but now i have sand in my mouth
and i can't spit it out.
social anxiety (dry sand castles)
i saw a picture comparing having social anxiety to gathering piles of sand or something like that, this is what i came up with.
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there's a tremble in
each breath you take
absolute; final; shaky
sea tides beneath us
collapsing
spluttering against
irises.

eyes sorry
but sorry isn't good enough.

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LailatAlQadr
The name's LJ
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United Kingdom
i am a bad poet and not much of an artist.
really, i'm just here to learn.

i am poor and so can't request critiques, but please comment on my work.

i love Adventure Time and BBC Sherlock. i live for cartoons and hugs.

Flame Princess - Stamp by Rumay-Chian Skyrim Stamp- ANIMATED by Faeth-design Teen-Titans-Go-Stamp by migueruchan Aang Avatar Stamp by ChaseStarlit Adventure Time: Title Stamp by immature-giraffe Personal: Moustache Stamp by immature-giraffe Marceline =P by clio-mokona Good bye Finn by clio-mokona
finn by scenesque Adventure Time Stamp by JrCook Marshal Lee Stamp by ChaseYoungIsMine
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FioLee: Playing video games by Kaze-yo
SH Sherlock and John Stamp by TwilightProwler SH Sherlock + Violin Stamp by TwilightProwler Lose the scarf by Coley-sXe Thinking-sherlock by Coley-sXe
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i feel small and insignificant and i can't bear living a life where no one loves me. honestly i just want to die.

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SolidMars Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
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thank you kindly for the fav dear :tighthug: say where does your user name come from? doesn't it mean the night of fate?
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LailatAlQadr Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes! :D In Arabic, it was the night of the Islamic calendar I was born on.
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SolidMars Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
such a glorious night to be born in :D 
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LailatAlQadr Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Haha, thank you. :hug:
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LLDerP Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! really appreciate it :)
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LailatAlQadr Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No proble, you're awesome!
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LailatAlQadr Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
M* Oops!
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Lizten26041 Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! Love your stuff as well.
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LailatAlQadr Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! You're seriously talented! =D
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